it feeds on itself

it was fun

it was of the moment

the longer i am away the more sadness I find moves into my heart

sadness for the lives they must actually experience

sadness for the loneliness

sadness for the lack of stability

sadness/anger for a church (believers) who have forsaken them

sadness/anger for a church (believers) who judge before getting to know them

anger at myself for an almost "taking for granted" the moment of time being fun and putting a couple of bucks in their hats for a photo op without trying to know them better - without asking their names - without simply saying "God bless you" - without asking if we could take him for a meal together with us.



The older I get, the more I experience, the more I read, the more I pray, and the more I listen to what for me are the "still moments" of His voice... the more I realize God's grace is so much bigger than we give the Lord credit for. I know the importance of doctrine - it's what gives a sturdy foundation to our beliefs as followers of Jesus. But, I'm beginning to understand that the mysteries - those aspects of the Lord which He has chosen to hide from us - may just well be on equal, if not more important standing. We say we understand grace and yet over and over we decide where the lines of acceptance in God's heart lie. I'm saying the very fullness of His grace is a mystery, but one to aspire to understand more and more until we no longer see others as outside His reach...until we only see His face before us when we first begin our judgements.